My forever and a day.

So, here's to more good morning text messages, cups of warm coffee, breaks spent playing left for dead, RP adventures, orange kitkats, food just before my 4:30 classes, random mall meet-ups, late night phone calls, tutoring my in accounting,bringing me to Yuchengco, treating me flat tops,bringing my things for me, fighting for me infront of a 150 people crowd right after signing Love Story to meinfront of said crowd, holding me when i'm feeling justso hella low, giving me the best 18th birthday ever,window shopping, web cam sessions, dismissal spent at the yuchengo stairs, blue v-necks to you, and basically, just more, and more,and more, and more, and more of you everyday until forever.
I love you so much, best friend!♥

To you

It's like I miss you, but I don't. I guess that's reasonable considering you've been my companion, through everything.. through my ups and my downs and I never really had the chance to re-pay every affection back to you. You have been such a great part of my life. Fighting for me when I couldn't stand up, catching me when every single thing is going against me, being with me, on my side, even if it meant hurting yourself. You have made me stronger and tougher in ways you can't even imagine. You have given me so much faith in life. You have made me feel so special, and for that, I'll forever remember.

I'm so sorry. I have loved you in my own way. Maybe not the way you would have wanted me to, but I did.. in my own. So here goes. I promise that someday, we will meet again, and by then, you'll be proud of me.

Until then.

Finally made it through the lonely

... to the other side. :)

I am one lucky girl.

As the door closed that separated me from the outside world to my own far-away world, the pace of my heart's beating went twice as fast as it was before. I was nervous. Heck, nervous is the understatement of the year. As I think of all the worst, humiliating things that could happen, I realized I was pacing around. I stopped, and decided to sit down. As I hit my comfortable position, the phone began to ring. Nervously, I reached out and answered it. Call me crazy, but that was probably one of the most nerve-wrecking phone call I've ever gotten. I stood up, paced back and forth, and realized that I have to go. Nervously, I reached to the door, opened it, and that's where everything started. The random flashes, the instructions, the event organizer.. Everything was just so overwhelming. Every step made my heart beat faster than it did before, and I can seriously feel the blood climbing up to my face. This has never been my kind of thing.

As the door that would connect me to my world begins to open, I uttered a little prayer. Thank you. Thank you so much for the wonderful eighteen years. Thank you so much for giving me a support system as wonderful as I have. Thank you for the beautiful dress, for the amazing shoes, for the shiny accessories. Thank you. Thank you for the glamorous set up, for the people surrounding me. Thank you for blessing me with eighteen wonderful and beautiful years. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.











It was one of those moments that every single thing was just damn perfect. I sit there, and with just a single glance around the room, I knew I couldn't wish for anything more. I was being surrounded by everyone who matters to me, and it felt surreal. It was amazingly beautiful. It was one of those rare moments where in the world conspired with me.. And, I am just.. one grateful girl.

Thank you. Thank you for the wonderful songs and performances. Thank you for the kind, sweet, and loving words. Thank you for playing the guitar for me. Thank you for the thoughtfulness. Thank you for putting a smile on my face. Thank you for growing with me, and smiling with me.


To you, my constant and never failing guide, I love you. I could never truly express how thankful and blessed I am to have someone like you as my best friend. You're my sister, my parter-in-crime, my companion. You're always, always, always there.. You never let me doubt myself, and you just bring out the identity in me. Thank you so much. You're a very astonishing and beautiful person, and I love you.


And to you, my baby. You who fought for me in front of 120 special people in my life, you make me beyond speechless. Brave boy, you've constantly taught me that falling in love with you is something that I should never be scared of. You secure me in more ways that you can ever imagine, and I'm just so much blessed to have you in my life. You are beyond wonderful, baby.. You're just the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I just love you with all my heart.

To my always there and ever supporting family, I am nothing with you guys. I hope you know that. Thank you for always picking me up when I'm down. Thank you for always making me feel better. Thank you for just knowing.. and for loving me. My heart is exploding with so much happiness, and I know, I owe this all to you. Thank you. I love you guys so much.

A Letter to Lea: 18 candles

Hi Lea.

Today just happens to be your eighteenth birthday. Happy, happy birthday! Can you believe that? You're finally of age!! First of all, congratulations. You may not fully be the person you wish you were, but don't worry. You'll get there. You're eighteen now! Almost two decades on Earth. Isn't that something to think about? You get to drink alcoholic drinks legally, get married.. you can even get arrested now, which is something that you should probably never ever let happen. You're a very blessed girl, you know. You have a family that loves you dearly - siblings who makes your life colorful and parents who support you dearly. You have your friends, too! Even if you're not that close and comfortable to most of them, you know they'd always have your back. You just maybe have to open up a little. Last but not the least, you have Alba.

Before I proceed with this letter smartly addressed to yourself, let me just write down how important today is for you. You see that picture on top? He owns your first kiss. Yup. You know yourself better than anyone else, Lea. You know, for a fact, that you are insanely in love with him. You know those rare moments when you feel like everything has rightfully found its place? Hands down - it was THAT moment. After classes, he dragged you across the street, right into the coffee shop you've both been wanting to try. There, he gave you his 'well-thought of and sentimental' (well, I shall classify this one for you since according to him, he still have something to give you on your debut!) presents: His number 19 CSA football jersey, a CD of him dancing, and lastly, 3 page hand-written letter. Dear self, just to remind you, you cried so much. It was insanely touching. Alba's letter moved your heart and soul. He gave you that perfect moment. I know, you just turned eighteen.. and there's soooo much more things to see, but let me tell you this: Stay with this boy, always. Never let him go. He is your match, and despite your differences, he is your partner. He will always be.

Anyway, so much for that. Now that you're eighteen, please enjoy life a little more. Please go out there, and take greater risks. Live. Travel. Go to places unknown to the majority. Don't be afraid. Live fearlessly and without regrets, Lea. Lastly, just be happy. You'll turn nineteen next year.. Twenty - the year after next, and it will go on, and on, and on. So hang in there, self! Be young. Be strong. Be you. You're a great person, and I know, you are destined for something great.

Happy birthday, again.

Till then, lucky girl!

The truth is..

• I'm being like this because I'm not sure until when you'll be around. When I told you awhile ago that I want to tour around the world after college, I wanted you to tell me that you'll come with me. I was being silly, I know. But I just get this feeling where in just the thought of being away from you, makes everything suck me up in.
• I'm being like this because I want to be able to trust you fully. And I can't do that if I'm living on what ifs, instead of actually knowing what you think. I want to be able to risk.
  
• I'm being like this because I want to give you the chance to unchain yourself to me. And It's killing me. I never really do understand young lovers when they use the term "forever". It's too cliche and all. But, all I really want right now is your assurance that you would never give up on me.