ashes of cigarettes

It was a lovely and breezy Wednesday night by the bay, and yet, I was beyond exhausted. It was a very raining morning, and classes got suspended. I abhor university life for being like that, but maybe, it's also for our own good - teaching us to be more responsible and hardworking in the long run.. Yeah, right. The ambiance was very cozy, and the mood was beyond enchanting. The smell of smoky Japanese food, legitimate American steak, and wine is around the air, and everything was just so ideal. I never really thought anything can go wrong until you suddenly said, "I'm going to miss this." I knew you were leaving for abroad again tomorrow, and we weren't as close as before anyway, and yet.. despite that, it only took me less than a second to realize that I feel bad - So terribly bad that I can't help but tilt my head to any other direction but yours. It's crazy how close we were before, and how strangers we are now. The depth of the comparison of our relationship just baffles me. I don't think you'll ever know how much I look up to you. How much I look up to your never ending love towards your family. The way you honor where you came from is so rare and so equisite. You're a wonderful man. I wish you didn't have to leave so soon.